If i could, were i'd love

I wish i could stop time, just for a bit
so that i might be able to look into your beautiful face,
to study its form, its curves, its splendor

i’d like to feel god in your hair
and cry, with you unaware

i have seen you in a hundred faces
and longed for contact, yet you would never understand
my need to glorify your existence,
it’s not what we do – it’s unacceptable

my benevolence can never be proven, and this
is why i cannot approach you and rejoice in your beauty

this is not my home, these are not my people.

There

Just behind the curtain, the invisible curtain,
where if I move my hand through the air, I might just catch you there
watching me from an incomprehensible distance.

Just behind the fog of this reality
there is another place calling me
I have seen it in my dreams,
and its light and its hue are heavenly blue.

Why do I suffer here? I want to know this love that
I cannot seem to wrap my fingers around.
I want to slip through the cracks and fall away into this place -
I want God to show his face!
I need to know his name so that I can justify this pain.

You are

You are the light that you would see reflecting in my eyes
if only you could awaken
to the truth of what you are.

you are the mountains, the trees, and the oceans,
and the sunset - you are all of these.

you are radiant beauty reflecting,
you are intellect supreme manifesting,
you are wisdom waiting.

you are the greatness that you will become, that is already happening,
that has already happened, that lasts forever - that has just begun.

you are a part of this thing that defines me and my reality.
you are the smile drawn across my face, in a lonely place; simply put, you are my friend.