20140927

Saranesia

Down the road
a boy would
go
into darkness
fearless
afraid,

she never stayed

and the living gravel
would bite
at his feet
whilst moving headlong through
a kind of haunted sleet
"a cold has come"
though he trudges on
to some unknown end
to begin
again

where was she
if ever she were there
the flame of his despair
a warmth of a kind
that left no trace
behind
that she would ever
care
again

then he would pause
indifferent to
any cause
and upwards he would
gaze
into a kind of blinding
space
where a light should
cut its
way 
casting off
remnants of a 
past 
at once forgotten,
spoken of
in hushed tones
a memory of a reminder
that she were there,
any and every
where

head down
reposed
onward he 
goes, his
Saranesia
in the distance
knows.

20140923

Blood letter

A sickness would overcome me
in time for the winter solstice
to deface me with
a kind of beleaguered
discretion
not really trying
to suffer the dying
but bowing before
a cell
that would not
fail

the longest night
dreams
the shortest day 
screams
and an idea
got in my way
that i could
ever change you,
it’s true

but in this gray place,
where i try and hold this,
bleeds a certain feeling 
i can miss
in time for
this bloody solstice
to let the blood 
of my faith
in you
spill

and my flesh would pale in
your garrison
an entourage of
comparisons
go idly wiling 
slightly smiling
as i shiver
red
this river flows.

20140828

The Dregs Necrotic

Bodies move in succession
dripping with acrid indifference
a multitudinous progression
overwhelming the environment

these bodies gather unwittingly,
pushing, shoving, bumping, 
comatose to the failure of existence
having mindlessly given up
any pretense of resistance
to what must surely come

the bodies move decaying
squawking and forever spraying
words that have no shelf-life
touting the benefits of a purpose
in the face of a nothingness
that your god simply cannot explain

whether we are given purpose 
or create our own
we all go away in the end,
so we become numb again
prescribed a drug,
the opioid moment,
to quell the anxiety
of the ever present,
effervescent end.

20140506

Cancel

Break and breathe
a getaway train
for the tripping
speeds

into a station unmapped
relapsed again
here comes the frame
again to blend
in when spin
has unspun
a friend

deleted unsettled
a franchise unfettered
i wish i'd come sooner
when dying was less
in

forget to forget
all the way home
akin to skin
amend
amen.

20140504

The wasting

A drifter
shapeshifter
approaches
soul sister
explains existence
in a word or two
sharing...
we are the dead

bodies walking
stumbling into a promised
systematic failure
without a hint of redemption
nor guarantee of a life
less fleeting
at moment’s end

we are the wasting
a dripping sickness
a mass of cells
coming apart
on the basis of day
slipping away
a slow decay
this time untamed

death is irrelevant
when death is so prevalent
and the fact that
we medicate suggests
life is not evidence
of an existence 
benevolent.

20140108

Masturbation

Afterthought by John Belmont

I have to pee

Afterthought by John Belmont

20140107

Broccoli

Afterthought by John Belmont

Dressing

Afterthought by John Belmont

Who are we kidding?

Afterthought by John Belmont

Bloody bits

Afterthought by John Belmont

Fart like a man

Afterthought by John Belmont

Blonde?

Afterthought by John Belmont

Chewing too fast

Afterthought by John Belmont

Masturbation time

Afterthought by John Belmont