at first and all at once
i am fallen i am floored
a twisting mutating thing before you
i gather pieces of broken
i swallow moments of shallow
i call out to handfuls of empty
i brace myself for the freezing night to come
i shiver the shudders closed
i hate myself to better health
i hold the wealth of the poor in my breath
i scrape the stains of the north
i bleed the balloons that burn in a boy’s mind
i hold the fence so that she will come
i cry out not her name
i am pain
i am slain
i am small
i am smaller
i am smallest
i am going to find the silence
and tell her i love her
when no one else can hear her
i will be her saviour
i will pause
turn
watch the empire explode in the distance
fill the sky with indifference
blow her out of existence
then give birth to a new day
a new way
at first and all at once
i am fallen no more
i am
