Drawn inexplicably towards
indifference,
an apathetic state,
a gray crystalline kind of weight,
a sort of beacon pointing home
where purpose is a luxury
for the many who go blindly,
yet ever so certain, kindly
into the false sublime
of hope
and there on a precipice hanging,
a mammoth to this waking,
dream witness to the
aching, flowing tepid through
the soul.
20131118
20131031
Die you fuck
Manage my death
so that i can formally
displease you
appease not a thing
that should ease you
synchronize my love
for your pain engrained
on blood-stained windscreen
i am so glad that i am not sad
that your body I’ve shamed
it’s just that i inundate
myself with images of shit
bag fuck-wits walking this
zombie dead dirt fuck ground
earth that dies dies dies
stinks rots bleeds fecal matter
a cold warm blooded spatter
why won’t you die you
fuck?
20130517
Octave
An octave above
is where my love
breeds eternity
were I without you now
my sound like mist would fade
if only you would stay
and blind you would remain
an octave above
is where infinity rests
where my love bests
the presence of my disease
and in this space a dissonance would grace the primacy of our place
though,
an octave above
is where I love
and bleed every seed anew,
to dwell inside of you.
20130511
My animal
In other worlds I have spent some days imagining you
aflame
and however bad I would burn, however long I would yearn, I would
unfold darkest wings to comfort you,
in turn
For I am a beacon of light against the greyest of your
bleakest days, forever hidden away by the blaze that is your flame
And yet mine hand through fire moves to carefully cradle
you, to transmit a notion that love transcends an ocean, permits a fire to
break if not only for a moment’s sake
but not even a second would go by in that immeasurable
parcel of time when a heart beats of mine smashes through the lie
that you should never be touched by love,
my animal for you a dove.
20130108
Seattle drippings
Long let stand the pleasance of my hand on bare skin flesh to crawl with a drawl of significance on this night full of the drippings of a Seattle rain
and blood is the color of my sleeplessness the value of my sheepishness in the face of your dead grin
but i am a pear of a man the sick sick brand broken by loathing a self bloating instability that ruins to cripple me with its own redundancy over and over and over and over again
what is that in your frown in that drool on your crown as you judge as if you could as if your subjectivity was the objectivity of my enmity
believe me relieve me deceive me receive me oh just hold me tell me that i am worth the trouble.
Precipice
In sickness come dreams so lucid posing questions pointing the way to answers only half offered unveling a new mist a fresh wrist for a wrapping and i feel a sapping on the back of my neck to ponder who i am that maybe i should start afresh with eyes of the other and wonder yes wonder how they see because maybe my world is not as self manifest as i would have it be and you would give me the possibility that there is more certainty in you as to my true nature than i could ever imagine whereupon this precipice the decadence of your highest cliffs whence suddenly i might see that i am indeed the unfathomable beauty of which you speak.
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